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Time has been slipping through my hands like sand and I'm not gonna lie, it's kind of a funky feeling. Anyway, a general update (which is mostly a health update, because that's what's been up.)

I am going to do the impolite, selfish thing and mention my very cool wishlist now, because otherwise I'm not sure I'm gonna be able to hit publish on this. I have a little bit of stage-fright or something right now.

1) Yeah, so on our longed-for first trip overseas in years, my mom got sick the very first day there, and I got sick (what was supposed to be) our last day there. Stomach's bugs suck, and it completely wiped me out. Like, just, it took me like a weak just to be able to eat normally again and in the meantime I've never known hunger like that before. Holy shit. Yeah, things weren't good.

2) Then once I'd finally started getting better from that, I got a cold! And it always takes me weeks to shake colds because my immune system is a haphazard mess. So mostly I've been sneezing a lot.

3) Because of the aforementioned mess, I've not been able to take my rheumatism meds in nearly a month, because they mess with my immune system. So the general state of my physical body is also a mess. In particular I have a knee that hates my guts right now. I sure do hope the swelling goes down when i start taking meds again.

4) My neck continues to hate me. I got a device thing from hospital that is supposed to help and I think it does but, when it stops working I notice the pain. I have a very high pain tolerance; when I get used to a pain it basically stops existing for me. I can no longer get used to my neck pain because it keeps going up and down, and thusly, when the device's relief runs out, it hurts so much. I've been popping painkillers like candy the last couple of days. I would like that to stop.

5) Mentally I'm actually doing pretty okay! I'm on anti-depressants now, and wow. I kind of don't want to die. That's a wild feeling. I can't believe some people just feel like this by default. Wow. I probably should have looked into getting it way sooner, but better late than never.

Now for a few quick, not health updates:

1) I'm continuing my years long personal crusade of requesting the library purchase in queer books, and some cool stuff was accepted recently. I'm excited!

2) I've actually been writing this month! I'm trying out WritingHabit, and I really like it so far XD

3) I signed up to a few exchanges last minute. I'm honestly not sure how it's gonna go; I might just need to default on them all. But I'm giving it a shot, at least.

4) I'm thrilled folks over on booknook have kept up with the Wednesday RIP posts, because that's just been sliding out of my memory completely. And it's really nice to not have to worry about it <3

Anyway, yeah, I'm still alive.